Punch in the gut

Tonight is a selection from my poetry.  I hope it gives an insight into the mind of someone with CPTSD

It is like a punch in the gut
You can expect it
Felt it a thousand times before
Clench your muscles in anticipation for it
Know when the powerful body will throw it
Do 1000 sit-ups a day to strengthen yourself for it
It still can hurt you
The pain can catch you off guard
The power behind it surprise you
It can still knock you off balance
It can still leave you wondering
Asking why did it affect you so this time
Wondering why it is different from the other times
Asking how did you fail yourself,
Because this was not supposed to happen
You can get mad, angry, upset
You can yell until your lungs cry with pain
You can try to funnel all that energy into a return punch
You can try to understand it
You could just go on
You can think
You can just react

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